Linda的布拉格

Happy New Year.
Happy New Year?
I have to first thank my dear friend 阿怎
Maybe she has to thank me back, for being with each other on the New Year's Eve.
A get-together without planning but out of a sudden and full of excitement.
It was crazy, and one of the the most unforgettable.
Most of the countdown was spent with dear fellow of bochia in past years,
one at the riverbank of Tyne watching firework in cold winds,
one in Treviso, small town north of Venezia, under the historic bell tower with splashed Champagne and hugs from passionate Italians.

On the New Year's Eve, I also wanted to thank a person just met, Arthur.
The chat during the ride's great. Came in the right time of the freezing night.
Thanks for being eager to have a talk and be understanding.
A lost person somehow finds a direction, though vague.
Everyone needs at least one resolution for the new year, but so hard to locate one.
This makes so many wandering souls.

2004 was a mess, was a total mess.
Fled England, wishing to start something new, but in the end of the year without achieving anything satisfactory.
This has been haunting me for a while.
I did not live my life the way it's supposed to be lived. 2004 was a waste.
I wanted to do a lot of things, I missed a lot of people, I felt a lot of different feelings,
but did not have them done, did not have them told, failed to write them down.

Then it came to the end of the year in a speed of a shooting star.
My steps suddently halted.
So afraid to walk into 2005, so afraid everything's gonna be the same as the past year.

It should be different.

Over the past ten months back home, the person I most appreciated is a teacher, the mentor, far away in Newcastle, Eric.
I appreciate he sees me as his daughter,
always remembering to pop me messages, read my happiness or problems, send me beautiful postcards whenever he traveled around.
Very heartwarming.
I do not want to let him down, nor do I wish to let my dearest sisters down.
Fixing a vision takes time and courage. I don't know if I will ever make it this year.
Yes, listen to your heart. The voice comes louder and louder, marching towards the reality.
I want to stay.

Try my best, and fingers crossed.

Thanks and loves to you all, who are always by my side, making me smile, whether I know it or not.
Please still be with me coz I need you too much.